SCARED.

So by now you have probably had about the bomb blasts and those of you that live in Uganda or Kampala already kicked into cautious mood and have had part of your social lives taken away. Anyway i heard the bomb blast but it only became reality when i saw the footage on the news and i was genuinely scared. You see these things on T.V in far off countries and never think thay will happen in your country to fellow citizens or friends or family..luckily i never lost anyone but my condolences to those who did. Terrorism wasn't just in a box on my tv or in the newspaper or on the net but on ma doorstep..i was scared and still am.
Then i thought of all the things that scared me that were insignificant...the fear of failure, the fact that i was scared to seriously talk to my parents about moving out, my fear of commitment, and the latest and worst fear that i had very little instinct of a mother, THIS WAS THE WORST. A girl grows into a woman and those motherly hormones kick in but recently i encountered a lady at a shop who asked me if i was buying glucose for my baby, to say i was appalled was an understatement i answered no with a blank look on my face and thought why the heck would i have a baby...i like children and try to tolerate them and think they are pure blah blah blah but why was i appalled that someone would see me as a mother? Am still trying to understand this but in light of the twin bombs it seems so insignificant.
Did this event give me courage to overcome some of my fears because i was confronted with a much bigger fear? The answer no! but it did give me a greater understanding of how life is precious and how the people in our lives should be appreciated on daily basis and it concretized my belief in the Almighty God.