ENVY OR ADMIRATION?

Well today i was in the company of a brain surgeon....hold your horses nothing is wrong with your home galz brain! Okay to be honest something is wrong but not that which needs a brain surgeon, i just met him because of a little car accident and this guy spoke Russian, how did i get to know that, well...details you don't need to know but anyway I was like WOW i have heard French, Spanish, German and Chinese but Russian no!
Now my mind went into rewind and i remembered all those French lessons in primary school and the German ones in F.1 and F.2 and then the 'i wish' demon crept in and i was like, I wish i had done a language longterm coz i would be so much more enlightened and there would be many more people i could speak to with a second foreign language.
Then i thought...yes after the rewind i came to the present and thought...do i admire this guy or envy him. Well i admire him because he has the discipline to learn a new language stick to it and speak it but the fact that i went into the 'I wish' mode makes it envy because i longed to poses his fluency in a foreign language.
Well i concluded that there is a fine line between envy and admiration and when i search my heart i think i was more an admirer than envious or jealous. Don't believe me okay lemme ask you this, why would your home girl be jealous of a guy who speaks a language which is known for warfare communication and training olympic winners...am neither a war lord nor a sportswoman so.........ADMIRATION!