I WOULD LOVE TO CARE BUT I DON'T.

This is like day whatever seated at home doing nothing, my mom occasionally shows concern telling me to be proactive, my dad on the other hand is glad to have his baby girl at home 24/7 no risks of pregnancy or HIV/AIDS or any other big embarassments to the family. Anyway i met up with a friend of mine and she was talking jobs and interviews and C.Vs and i was with her but not 'with her'. Ever had those conversations where your hearing someone but not really listening..yeah that was the kind i was in. So i have not written any C.V nor any application why? i don't know.. perhaps the fact that it is all a waste of time seeing as jobs are got through whom you know and not actually what you can do or maybe the fact that am very pessimistic about the way labour is treated in my beautiful country and hate being a victim or my constant reflections on why i can't get employed and rightly paid for my other abilities that are non-academic like writing, or having a good and educated opinion on things, or party planning n organisation. Well i also dislike authority but who doesn't? maybe i will be well suited for self employment but then again that too has its predicaments. Its not that i would not like to get a job or am lazy okay maybe am a bit lazy but when i put ma mind to it i get things done. I guess its all this negative energy surrounding the job market and all this pressure and overwhelming interest in who has a job n who doesn't. Truth be told i would love to care about this job situation and all the hype but i don't.... i have been in school for 19yrs i deserve a one month break before i conquer the world and yes i will conquer the world but before that am going to enjoy soccer season, wake up late and sleep even later and gain all the weight i lost worried over a degree not lose some more worrying about a job. By the way wat does the bible say about worrying....DON'T.

WOMEN AND BEAUTY PRODUCTS

So on the weekend i was over at ma girlfriend's place and so as her girlfriend i found my way to the bedroom(we know no bounds). Anyway yeah the bedroom, nice place matched beddings and curtain, fresh, well lit but all those i noticed with a glimpse then viola the beauty corner. This gal had a three tier trolley full of beauty products. I as a human being began to note and judge, that is for skin lightening but she is light, oh now that soap makes you dark why does she own it, does she not notice that that tin is empty, ooooh God does she have that perfume hmmm wonder if she can agree to give it to me, uuuuuuhhhhhh is that gro-aid didn't know she had hair problems, look at the dirt in that make up brush does she ever clean it??? Well my mind run all these directions with just on glance. Then it occurred to me girl why are you judging first look at your own shit.
Well i went back home sat on my bed and looked at my own beauty corner, you would think am running a beauty shop: nail polish; used, unsed and dried up on, hair oils from 4 different manufacturers, shampoos; pantene, head and shoulders, johnson, soaps; exfoilating, black heads, mositurising, makeup; from rimmel, balck radiance l'oreal, mac all serving the same purpose, deodrants and perfumes and i was like damn!
Women love their product and thats just that, we may never use it but we find comfort in knowing that we have it. We have attachement issues that is why we never throw away anything. And that is my defence for why i never cleaned out ma beauty corner and as for why i judged my home girl well...am human best defence i can get. But as a progressive person who believes in growth i will throw away something once in a month okay no in six months...oh well i will throw away something once in a while.

SURVIVING THE CLAWS OF THE URBAN CITY

Today i was delighted to met a new acquittance, D , she is from Tooro and she has come to stay with her cousin P a good friend of mine. D doesn't know any luganda-which is like the trading and predominant language in Kampala-and she knows enough English to get by. She is a pretty and innocent girl but on meeting her ma joy was soon diminished by thoughts of what would happen to her in 5 years and if she will survive the dangerous claws of Kampala city. Will she survive being a side dish, settling down just for survival, get an education and if she does follow through on it? What will happen to her and will P protect her or propel her into the scandals lives of many girls such as her who come from the village to the city in search of a dream and a better life.
I am a good listener although am a better talker but i have heard of stories of girls who came with so much hope for a better life in the city but are met by the harsh reality. I know of a hairdresser who came from the village to live with her her sister hoping for a better tomorrow but on arriving to kampala she discovered her sister was a prostitute and to stay with her she had to join the trade because as the sister said to her "this that you detest so much pays the bill and helps me survive so do it or go back to poverty". In her mind her sister was an authority on life in the city so she followed her until she was rescued by a good Samaritan who introduced her to the beauty business.
This is the fact of life for some but i prefer optimism so i will hope that D survives the claws of the city.

ONWARDS ONWARDS...AM PUSHING ON

Yeah am back, i never really give up on things but as a self confessed procrastinator i often leave things hanging especially if they are not yielding expected results just like this blog. I put a hold on my blog heck it has only two followers one of whom is me..i love myself that much people and you should envy me if you don't(love yourself that is) ha ha ha. But seriously i had kind off put it on hold until today when i attended a media event for the 360 Network where someone spoke about blogs and blogging. Well a blog is an onlinejournal of sorts...i figure its like the diaries we keep at home, people read them but never tell us until they stumble upon something really captivating. So my blog might be read by many people God knows where coz its on the WWW and when they are captivated they will click that follow button as for now its onwards onwards for me with my blog.